Part of the Journey is the end
I’m moving back to Twitch. It’s been an incredible year plus journey over on Mixer and I’m unbelievably thankful for the people that I’ve met along the way. I’m also incredibly thankful for the opportunity I was given to work with and be a part of the Variety Pack team. That team has grown in ways I never expected. There’s this perception that there’s not enough variety over on Mixer but that team has been a resounding rebuttal stating, ‘Variety is most definitely here.’ I can’t tell you how cool that is. Between the team and the Mixer community, I’ve met people who I genuinely consider friends and I know they have significantly impacted my life. My time on Mixer was meant to be a three-month experiment, but it ended up being a much longer stay. It taught me to be more resourceful and reevaluate my entire streaming process. I’m really proud of the things I’ve done this year, and a large part of it has to do with the growth I’ve seen with my time on Mixer and learning from the people in that community. I found a family.
There’s a part of me that fears moving back to Twitch will be seen as a disapproval of Mixer. I still very much believe in the platform and believe in the people there, but my overall goals with streaming have changed. I’m moving back to Twitch to finish out the year and then I’ll be hanging up streaming for a while. It’s been an incredible four years chasing this pursuit of full-time streaming, but I can’t help but feel it’s time to put a bow on this. I’m proud of everything I’ve been able to experience these last four years, but when I look at the next four years I’m not sure holding on to this idea of full time streaming and treating it like a job is what I should be doing. It was always a long shot, and I think I’ve reached a point where I can say that I gave it my all. I’ve never put as much energy into something as I have streaming. I love it with all my heart. But, I think it’s time to see what’s next. What better way to bring this to a close then to go back to where I started?
I could never give up streaming entirely, but I know that I’m very much an all or nothing kind of person. I’m gonna need an extended break from streaming before I introduce casual streaming again, otherwise, I know I’ll slowly creep my way back up to putting as much time in it as I have these last few years. So here’s the general roadmap for how this is going to play out. I’m gonna finish September on Mixer. I’ll be taking an IRL vacation through the first week of October, but when I get back I’ll resume streaming on Twitch. We’ll finish out the year with the same schedule that we’ve been doing through December 28th. We’ll have our annual 24-hour stream on December 28th and sunset this together.
I’ve gone back and forth on whether it’s the right call to announce that I’m hanging things up for a while. Seems overly dramatic, but hey you all know me well enough by now. I mean the biggest tip-off is that I refer to the stream in seasons, right? Ultimately, letting you all know where I’m at and what I’m planning feels like the right move. I let out a series of tweets where I hinted this was on my mind. I said that I’m the kind of cheesy that would use a GIF of Captain America saying, ‘I can do this all day,’ to pump myself up, but sooner or later the day eventually ends. I really don’t want it to end without saying goodnight. This way we get to say goodnight together.
If you have any questions, you know how to reach me. I’ll have more to say later on in the year as we get closer to the 24-hour stream. You know I tend to write novels, so buckle up for the next post. Until then, as always, thank you for your time. <3
9/24/2019 06:32:39 am
I read this the day after you posted and I've been trying to get around to saying something about it. I've always felt you had the potential to make it as a big streamer. But clearly, you're seeing something written on the wall that I can't. While I hate to see you closing this chapter of your life, I commend you for recognizing when it's time to do so. Obviously, this isn't because it doesn't bring you joy. Every time I have watched you, every time I have seen a clip on the socials, you ARE extremely happy when you stream. That's what makes this more disappointing. I wish you the best of luck on whatever you do and hopefully, we will meet up IRL again in the future.
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